So. I'm stuck here, sitting around doing nothing. Same as every saturday night. I had a date last night. Dinner @ Applebees, then bowling with Alex and Audrey. It was fun, except during bowling mitch was being a jerk since he can't bowl for shit and was losing. I suck too, but I wasn't having a bad time because of it. Mitch gets that way about lots of things. I got invited to Alex's to watch a movie with him and Mitch tonight, I really really want to go, but my mom doesn't want to get out and take me. She said I could go, but I'd feel guilty the whole time. Why bother? I feel kinda down today. Must be pms, since I was in a pretty good mood. I hate being so easily annoyed. My face looks like a weird zit carrying disease attacked it, and I'm really pale. I look hardcore sick. I was texting Aud, but she quit answering. She's at work..that might explain things. The pshyco worked this morning from 7:30am - 3:30pm at the Rec, then she went to Arbys from 5:00pm-12:00am. No 15 year old should work that much. I need a job, really bad. I hate  asking my mom for money, and depending on mitch when we go out. I'd love to take him out for once. Plus, my horse needs shoes. I need riding lessons. I really want to go out and ride tomorrow, but my mom is sick, so thats doubtful. Plussss, I really dont want to go out there with anyone else. I always feel really awkward. Do you ever have a moment in your life where someone says something to you that makes you think "Oh, god, they really really care about me." ? I totally had one of those yesterday. It was amazing.
Has anyone heard of this website: www.grouphug.us ? Its Pretty amazing. I could sit around forever reading people's secrets. I wish postsecret got updated more often. Its scary how many of them I can relate to, sometimes. Something just fell on my floor, but god knows what, considering this is my room. I'm too lazy to go look. Heh, at least I can admit it I guess.
I'm going to go, cause this is long, and no one reads them anyways. -shrugs- If anyone is out there..anyone at all, really, you should comment. Even if its just a "hey." It would make me feel special. haha

Do you ever talk  to someone and you find yourself saying things just to impress them? Things you know they want to here? I hate it when I do that. My bumps are starting to go away on my neck, but now they are showing up on my stomach, and more around my eye. I went riding today. Honey was being kindof a snot, but oh well. It was a nice long ride. We're going to the horse expo in march. It should be fun. Since its in Lincoln I get to go shopping, and eat at decent restraunts that we dont have here in sucktown usa. Excuse my typos. I suck. The end. Anyways, this weekend I didnt do much at all. Played The Sims for awhile. I forgot how much I liked that stupid game. My mom was sortof depressed today, I wish I knew why. Mitch has been amazing lately. I'm baby sitting a toy-poodle for someone. I'm always afraid i will brake her when i pick her up. She only weighs 2 pounds. There is so much I'd like to say, but im not sure how to say it. I feel so restless, again. God. >.< I'm going to bed, I guess. <3